triggers

 Reading a book last night, fantasy story about the Shadowlands a parallel world to the Brightlands, which we know as OUR reality.  Main fem character bonds with a dragon - and the description threw me down the rabbit hole of memories of a May evening when a soul entered my life, and literally clicked - I never got over the feeling.   We never figured out how to be together and so many years later - the memory flooded me and it brought tears to my eyes.  And then I felt it - that familiar touch - and I was lost once again.

I know my life was meant to be solitary - I've known that from childhood - a knowing, a certainty.  I tried to game the system - acquiring spouse, kids, house and dog - going through the motions of a normal life.  I'm glad I did it for my kids are my life - but having been alone since 2003 - it just doesn't bother me. Until I feel that familiar touch - and my soul aches to go home.  

Except I'm not done here yet...work still yet to do.